Letter #6 August 3, 2018
Lainey,
I hadn’t expected it to come out like that. I had every intention on just letting you go, ending the conversation, and I had to go and call you ‘Jean’. I deserve everything you said, of course. I know I was an asshole, I know I could have been a better man. But I’ve changed. More than I can say. Please know I’ve changed.
I know I haven’t said where I am, or where I live now, but I have a feeling you’ll find me soon enough. Especially if Jean has her way. I would be lying if I said I wasn’t expecting a slap in the face or something else equal to that -- and again, I would deserve it.
I didn’t realize just how much Stephen missed Jean. The longing just got so uncontrollable, the desire to see you, to hold you, it’s completely overwhelming. I hope that...well, that you’d like to see me one day. I’m not expecting anything, please don’t think that I am. I know we are technically still married, but if you wanted that to end, I would respect it. If you wanted anything else from me, I would respect that as well. Or, even if you didn’t.
This is going to be my last letter. If I keep writing, I’ll keep thinking that I’ve told you all these things, when I haven’t. And knowing that Jean is with you full time as well, it’s only a matter of time before all of this is revealed anyway. Jean does have a way of getting me, Stephen, to reveal everything.
I hope to see you soon.
Yours,
Silas.
Lainey,
I hadn’t expected it to come out like that. I had every intention on just letting you go, ending the conversation, and I had to go and call you ‘Jean’. I deserve everything you said, of course. I know I was an asshole, I know I could have been a better man. But I’ve changed. More than I can say. Please know I’ve changed.
I know I haven’t said where I am, or where I live now, but I have a feeling you’ll find me soon enough. Especially if Jean has her way. I would be lying if I said I wasn’t expecting a slap in the face or something else equal to that -- and again, I would deserve it.
I didn’t realize just how much Stephen missed Jean. The longing just got so uncontrollable, the desire to see you, to hold you, it’s completely overwhelming. I hope that...well, that you’d like to see me one day. I’m not expecting anything, please don’t think that I am. I know we are technically still married, but if you wanted that to end, I would respect it. If you wanted anything else from me, I would respect that as well. Or, even if you didn’t.
This is going to be my last letter. If I keep writing, I’ll keep thinking that I’ve told you all these things, when I haven’t. And knowing that Jean is with you full time as well, it’s only a matter of time before all of this is revealed anyway. Jean does have a way of getting me, Stephen, to reveal everything.
I hope to see you soon.
Yours,
Silas.